Sa base militar

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Dito ako ngayon nagbabakasyon malapit sa base ng hukbong sandatahan ng mga Amerikano. Saan man ako pumunta, maraming sundalo ang naroon - mga Kano, Hapon, at Pinoy. Kung saan-saan makikita ang mga sundalo dito - sa grocery, sa mall, sa kainan, sa park, at kung saan-saan pa. Syempre, kapa sinabi nating sundalo, aasahan nating makita na makikisig ang kanilang pangangatawan, malinis ang gupit, diretcho ang tindig at matitipuno. Oo, lahat ng yun ay sila, at karamihan sa kanila, lalo na yung mga nakababata ay gwapo pa.

Grabe. Sa isang banyagang bansa, ang hirap ng mamuhay sa loob ng 'closet' dahil hindi mo alam ang kultura nila. Hindi mo alam kung ang minsan mong pagsulyap ay nangangahulugan ng masama sa kanila. Pero masisisi mo ba ako kung mapatingin ako sa kanila ng matagal o kung mapalingon ako kapag dumaan sila? kasalanan nila yun, gwapo, matipuno, at ang pinakagusto ko ay yung uniporme. Shet! I love men in uniform!

Hindi ako makagalaw dito dahil wala akong pera at di ko alam kung paano makalibot. Gusto ko sana ng action. Kaso baka mapahamak naman ang mga nagpapunta sa akin dito kung pilitin kong maka-i-score ng isang sundalo. mahirap na. kaya ngayon, kailangan ko na lang matutunang mag-enjoy sa pagpapantasya ng mga sundalo.
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Postponed

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Pangalawang pagkikita namin ni guy from Round Trip. I am about to leave the country so he wanted to meet. Siyempre pumayag naman ako. Magkaroon man lang ng going-away present. Baka nga rin  last meet na namin that time.

Nagkita ulit kami sa mall. Nagdinner. Nag-usap. Tulad ulit nung dati, wala ulit plano. Basta magkita lang at makapag-usap, ok na. Noong dinner, out of the blue, nagtanong siya, 'gusto mo ba ako?' Nabigla ako pero sabi ko 'oo.' Sunod niyang tanong, 'gaano?' Anong gaano? Nasusukat ba kung gaano mo kagusto ang isang tao? Pero sinagot ko parin, 'sa ngayon, di ko masabi, kasi pangalawang kita palang natin.' Binalik ko sa kanya ang tanong na gusto mo ba ako. Ang sinabi niya, 'di pa ba halata?' 

Anyway, nauwi kami sa pagtulog sa bahay. And we spent a hot night together.


Mahirap talaga yung ganitong sitwasyon - yung may iiwanan ka. Mali ang oras ng aming pagtatagpo. Kung kailan lang kami nagkakakilanlan, tsaka naman kami paghihiwalayin. So no how would we know if we could ha hit it off. Sabi ko na lang sa kanya sa text, 'masaya ako sa nangyari sa atin, sayang lang at napostpone ang get to know stage natin. Babalik naman ako for Christmas. Sabi niya hihintayin na lang ako. 
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The One

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Yeay! Today I saw on my dashboard the most wonderful news... I have 1 follower! *crowd screams* Of course, I wanted to find out who it was so I clicked the link. Lo and behold... nothing. I don't know if it's my outdated browser or my problematic laptop. What is important is the fact that somehow a person thinks I do good here in blogging and that he took the time to click follow in his / her dashboard.

I do hope it increases to a hundred.
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Departures

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No, it's not about passing away or losing life, but rather, about moving on. These past weeks, alot of the people around me are going away. To different countries or different places here in the Philippines. Some went away temporarily. Some may take a long time to get back. There are those who found jobs,  and there are also those who just wanted to relax.

The person who I consider to be almost my boyfriend (we don't talk about our status 'coz we're just having fun) is going away to Mindanao for two months due to his work. I on the other hand will be flying in to a different country for a month. So tonight we spent our last night together.

There was an intense expression of passion from the both of us since we've seen each other for 3 weeks now. And now that we will part for a long time, I felt like I needed to give him a going away present. I decided to let him enter me from behind. I have never experienced such before but at the that moment, it seemed that it was the next thing to do. I felt like he did wanted to, I assured him that I wanted it too. But later he siad that he doesn't want to see me hurt. At that point I think I fell in love with him. He was so respectful of my feelings. He can be rough and soft at will. That's what I love about him. Well, aside from giving me the stiffest hard-on, of course. He's loving and adorable. Lagi kaming nanggigigil sa isa't isa.

So, now that we are both moving on, temporarily, I would the best time to rethink about our situation. Are we still going to live our lives by the day? Or we going to commit ourselves to each other? The most important question there is, am I ready to commit my life to a single person? It hard to think using two heads. You feel me?

So I hope the new climate and environment with rejuvinate my senses, recharge my energy, and reboot my perspective on all aspects of my life.
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Round Trip

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Madalas 'pag may tinititigan ako sa jeep at nakikipagtitigan din sa akin, wala namang nangyayari pagkatapos. Laging humihinto sa titig at kindat. Puro senyas, puro pakiramdaman. Pero kahapon iba ang nangyari.

Pagkababa namin ng jeep, matapos mangusap ang aming mga mata, nagkausap naman kami. Nagpakilala sa isa't isa at nagpalitan ng phone numbers.

Nang kinagabihan, napagkasunduan naming magkita. Napagpasyahan namin na pumunta sa Sta. Lucia Mall. Bago kami makarating sa mall, naisip niyang uminom na lang kami. Pero pagkadating namin sa inuman, puno na ito ng tao dahil Sabado nga pala noon. Kaya minungkahi niya na lumipat nalang kami sa Padi's point Marikina. Pumayag na lang ako dahil napapagod na rin akong palipat-lipat.

Sa may tabing-ilog ng Marikina, marami palang inuman dun. Namili kami ng isang lugar at umorder na ng isang bucket ng red horse at sisig. Kwentuhan, tawanan, at matinong usap. Nakakatuwa dahil parang matagal na kaming magkakilala noong nag-uusap kami. Mahilo-hilo, inimbita ko siya sa bahay sa Pasig para doon ituloy ang saya. ;)

Pagdating namin sa bahay, nakita naming bukas pa ang mga ilaw na nangangahulugang may gising pa. Nakakabitin yung pakiramdam. Andoon na nga, napurnada pa. Sa labas ng pintuan, naghalikan kami. Ang sarap, mainit, passionate. Pero bitin.

Inisip na lang namin tumambay sa village nila sa Cainta. Pero di kami doon natuloy. Bumalik kami sa pinanggalingan namin sa Marikina. Doon kami tumambay. Doon nag-usap ng matagal. Nagkwentuhan. Nagtawanan. Nakulitan. Nag-bonding. Para kaming magbarkada. Para kaming malapit na magkaibigan. Para kaming magkapatid. At dahil hindi siya pwede pang umuwi dahil wala siya susi sa bahay, nagtagal kami doon hanggang alas singko ng umaga.

Natuwa ako sa nangyari sa amin noong gabing iyon. Di tungkol sa sex. Di tungkol sa libog. Tungkol iyon sa matinong pag-uusap. Sa pagtuklas ng sarili at pagbahagi ito sa ibang tao.

Noon lang kami nagkakilala. Maaari din na iyon na ang huli naming pagkikita. Pero sa kaunting panahon na iyon parang naging mas makabuluhan pa ang pag-uusap namin kaysa sa iba ko pang kaibigan. Ngayon, naniniwala ako na minsa'y kailangan mo talagang makakausap ng isang estranghero upang magkaroon ka ng ibang pananaw sa buhay.
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Chances gone

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After feeling good this morning, I hoped I could make it more fun for the rest of the day. *wink*

One.

In the comfort room at EDSA Shrine. I know, I'm going to burn in hell. It was suppose to be just a normal call of nature. But when a guy came in and stared at me then my package, it became quite interesting. The exhiliration and excitement came in. We would have passed the "look" stage if not for an old guy who stood outside of the door waiting to use the toilet next. I stood outside thinking the guy I saw in the comfort room will follow. He did. We made small talk only to find out he was waiting for someone. So, I decided to abort the mission. Plus, it started to rain.

Two.

In the Robison's Galleria Moviehouse. Classic, right? The ones at the mezzaine of the moviehouse. Going in and out of the comfort room. Eyeballing some guys near my seat. Still resulted to nothing. Just some smiles and some nods. I just don't know the mechanics of that game. should I make the first move? Or should I just wait for someone to grab my dick? LOL.

Three.

Third one's the charm, right? Not really. In the locker room at Marikina Sports Complex. As I entered the locker room to change to my running attire, I immediately saw a guy eyeballing the place and everyone who was changing. He seemed to be finished with his workout and was about to hit the showers. While I was changing my clothes, I saw him slowly walk towards the shower cubicle. I sat down the bench to put on my shoes when I unconsciously looked at the direction of the shower rooms where the guy was bathing. The door seemed to be open. I wasn't sure. Then out of the door peeks the guy with just a towel on, staring at me with an inviting look. I just smiled at him. Then he went back in the cubicle not really bothering to close the door. I was already in my running gear, so I just passed. Plus there were people already coming in. So it would be strange for someone who just changed to go to the showers.

So, now at home with this tingling feeling in my loins. It's just one of those days that I wish I could go home to someone's arms and body. :)
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