Closet Clutters

I have been chatting with this guy for a few days now. Nakilala ko siya sa isang social media app - one of those random adds na naman. Yes, I'm that guy. Pero anong magagawa ko, I'm lonely. haha Anyway, I commented one time in his photo, asking if he's still working where his profile says he's working. It was somewhere familiar because I had applied to that company before. So, we kept on chatting from that simple inquiry. I was surprised that he kept the conversation going until the end of the day until we fell asleep. I kinda felt something good going on there. Until this day, we've kept the conversation going every day. Our conversations started wholesome with our jobs, traveling, hobbies, and days off to talking about sleepwear and preference in guys. So I guess, we're already at that getting-to-know stage. His days off are weird and don't usually coincide with my days off. But we have already decided to meet in 2 weeks. Hopefully, we can talk more about ...

when having sex, seek to pleasure yourself and not your partner Since I needed some distraction last night, I went out with my straight guy friends. Though there was no booze involved since liquor ban already started when we got to the fort, we just settled for a cup of coffee and some good ol' fashioned lafftrip conversation. Sometimes there were some bits of wisdom I heard from them. On kissing  having sex and telling: My friend had classified his friends into groups if ever they have sex: when both of them are game, either one of them is game when wasted (drunk or high), or both of them are game when wasted. When asked what the difference was, he said it's what can be told or be kept a secret. He keeps mum on his adventures when booze or drugs is involved. It belongs to the what-happens-in-stays-in category. Therefore, we, his friends, wouldn't hear about that story from him ever. On sex and pleasure: Another friend shared something he read when he was still in gr...

Mula sa isang usapan sa twitter, napaisip ako... "...may  crush ako  na pangkama..." May kategorya pala ang mga crush. Sabagay, hindi ba't lahat naman ay nagsisimula sa crush. Pero ano nga ba ang crush? Hindi ba ang crush ay paghanga, pagkabighani, pagkapukaw ng atensyon? Sa isip ko naglalaro ang iba't ibang crush na naranasan ko. Crush na pangkama. - Eto yung basic crush. Bale carnal in nature. Yung crush mo tapos gusto mo ikama tapos you'll take from there. Crush na pangkaibigan - Eto naman crush mo kasi dami ninyong things in common. Parang pede kayong maging activity buddies. Yung tipong magkakasundo kayo sa mga bagay. Crush na pangkapamilya - Eto naman yung crush na tipong nakikita mo siya as an older brother who'll give you pieces of advice or wisdom, or shield you from hurt. O younger brother na ibu-bully or papayuhan. Sasabihan kung sino sa ka-twit ang dapat o di dapat lapitan. O siguro parang tatay na maalaga at maasikaso. Crus...

I was with some friends that time. At the street as we were all having a conversation, I noticed, through my peripheral vision, three men approaching. They're tall, lean yuppies wearing what looked like uniforms, their polo barongs. They were all good looking. When they walked behind me, I tried to subtly turn my head and follow them. But when I turned my head to the other side, I saw my guy friend's eye looking, no, staring at the three tall yuppies. I just returned my head and smiled. I felt like my suspicion were validated. But later on, when we all went our separate ways, I wondered,was that really a validation rooted from my wishful thinking or do guys check other guys out? I have asked my girl friends if they check other girls out too. Almost all of them said yes. They do so because  (1) they find the girl's dress / outfit / accessories interesting, (2) they want to check the competition, or (3) they want to feel good about themselves by finding flaws from oth...

I really don't know how to handle gay banters like the ones straight people do. Minsan pakiramdam ko pag di ako sumagot, lalabas naman akong guilty or affected at pag sumagot naman ako, lalabas namang umaamin na ko. Ang weird lang. Di ko alam kung ano ang tamang timpla ng comedy na di naman ako mabubuking. Pasensya na, dito ko na lang kinikuwento, kasi feeling ko friends naman tayo lahat dito e. Where was I? Ah, banters. Like tonight. Casually, I asked a classmate to open a tight bottle for me. Wala naman talaga kong ibig sabihin doon eh. I was just asking him a favor to open the bottle for me because I honestly can't. Then, he jokingly remarked, "Si girlfriend talaga oh." In my mind, I was like, 'what?! where did that come from.' Shux. For a moment, I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. (Pero syempre may kasama ng kilig yun. Si crush kasi yun e.) Ayus lang sana kung kami lang e, pede pa ko maglambing ng konti kaso ang masama  doon ay narining ...

Matagal na ring panahon kitang pinagmamasdan. Tuwing madadaan ako sa pwesto ninyo, lagi akong napapatinging. Inaasahan ko na ikaw ang nagbabantay, na ikaw ang makikita. Laking ngiti ko naman kapag ikaw nga ang nasa likod ng mga mesa. Ulam man ang inyong binebenta, masilayan lang kita busog na ako. Buo na ang ang araw ko masaglitan ko lang makita ang mukha mo. Di ko mawari ang pakiramdam ko kapag nagtagpo ang ating mga mata. Sa tiyan ko'y parang isang daang paru-puro ang nadarama. Nagkasalubong tayo kanina, naglalakad pauwi. Gusto kitang tawagin ngunit wala akong nasabi. Kinakabahan ako baka kasi hindi mo naman gusto, Na maging kaibigan, katropa, o makilala man lang ako. Pero kahit na lumagpas na ang isang pagkakataon ngayon, Hindi parin ako magsasawang sumilay at tumingin sa iyong direksyon. Lagi ko parin aasahang makita ang iyong mukha, Aasang sana'y makausap at makilala man lang kita. Haay, kuyang may-ari ng carinderia, kaw na sana gumawa ng first move, ...