Closet Clutters

Fell down a rabbit hole reading my previous blog posts tonight. It's like taking a time machine and experiencing the whole thing all over again. There are posts that I could remember who and what I was pertaining to. There are posts that left me wondering what I was talking about there. Though some of those memories are hazy and details aren't as clear, I still remember the feelings I had back then that somehow transcended from my words and paragraphs. See, there's this guy (there's always a guy, right?) that discovered my blog. I was a bit scared and embarrassed about him reading my sexploits and misadventures. And I guess what I'm more concerned about was him seeing my inner thoughts and feelings of my past self and he might think that I am still that person. To be fair to him, he does a good job of assuring me that what's past is past. He does seem genuine and sincere. (And he can read this now hehe) I stopped reading my posts at 2014-ish. Seems to become hea

So here's the sitch. Plot twist (PT) and I aren't chatting no more. "Why?" you might ask. So here's what happened. On the night we were supposed to meet, he bailed. He said that he was going to his friend's birthday party. I call it BS. We've been planning it for more than a year and we've been talking every day and only that night that he tells me he's not available. I wasn't having it.  Anyway, the next day. I had a misfortune. So, my attention from that night before was all gone. I didn't care about him anymore. All that we talked about and discussed seemed like all lies. I unfriended him from social media. Didn't care for someone can't really communicate and wastes people's time. I recently informed his friend that we were exchanging messages. I also told him that I wasn't surprised about PT flaking because he was also flaky. They're friends after all. So there. That's another charge-it-to-experience kind of thin

The other day my most recent ex (MRE) messaged me. Actually, he replied in my story. My story was about the 4-year photo trend and his comment was to post the year we were together. Even joked to him "the one with you?" He just laughed at it and I did too. Then, I replied something that I later realized was a mistake. I asked him how he was. MRE: oks naman Me: that's good. MRE: lol. Super happy naman. I should have stopped there. Me: Juicy! Sino naman nagpa-supper happy sayo? MRE: Lol. De found na someone. hehehe la lang SKL I was so dumb with text acronyms nowadays. If I have understood it right away. I would have replied with something polite to end the conversation. Me: Di ko gets. You found someone? Ano yung SKL? MRE: Found a new partner ne hehe After 5 years. lol SKL = Share Ko Lang That led to a long conversation about our relationship that started from him asking me what his "toxic" traits were when we were together. I remember asking him this very same q

 P*tang ina talaga 'tong mga baklang 'tong salita nang salita sa katawan ko at sa eating habits ko. Pakialam ninyo ba? Akala ninyo ba ikinaganda ninyo 'yan. Ano bang gusto ninyong sabihin ko, Oo, makatakaw ako. Masiba ako. Walang kapaguran ang bituka ko.  Sira ulo pala ninyo eh. Hindi naman kayo ang nagpapakain sa akin. Wala namang kayong naitutulong sa buhay ko eh.  Iyong isa matapos akong landi-landiin, sasabihin ba naman sa story ko na  walang tigil ang bibig ah. Oral fixated? haha. Dinagdagan pa na, So di ka pa tapos kumain? Bravo!  Eh loko ka pala eh, sa'yo ko ba kinuha pambili ko ng pagkain. Tapos yung isa ko namang fubu sa Pinas parang gago rin eh. Sabi ba naman magpapayat daw ako para masarap. Tang*na talaga. Tapos magtatanong siya kung may chance bang sagutin ko siya. Sira ulo ka pala eh. Di ka na nga gwapo, di ka rin naman hot, bulok din ugali mo. Tsaka ninyo ako sabihan ng ganyan kung kayo ang bumubuhay sa akin at nagpapakain sa akin.

Just learned that one of my favorite couple-friends added a third in their relationship since last year. I'm honestly quite curious how that works. I know that it takes a lot of maturity, trust, loyalty, love, respect, communication, and understanding to pull that off. But I wonder, how does the third one come in? Do couples decide first they want a third one or does the conversation happen when one of them started to be attracted to someone else? Does the relationship have to be a certain boring to start the conversation of possibly getting a third? Does the relationship start being open first before being throuple? I really don't know how it starts. Anyway, I'm happy for them. I am happy for every couple who added spice to their relationship by being open or adding a third. But to be honest, I'm envious and upset. There they are having each other, living together, and now adding another one in their lives. And here I am still alone, moping and sulking in my loneliness

I have been chatting with this guy for a few days now. Nakilala ko siya sa isang social media app - one of those random adds na naman. Yes, I'm that guy. Pero anong magagawa ko, I'm lonely. haha Anyway, I commented one time in his photo, asking if he's still working where his profile says he's working. It was somewhere familiar because I had applied to that company before. So, we kept on chatting from that simple inquiry. I was surprised that he kept the conversation going until the end of the day until we fell asleep. I kinda felt something good going on there. Until this day, we've kept the conversation going every day. Our conversations started wholesome with our jobs, traveling, hobbies, and days off to talking about sleepwear and preference in guys. So I guess, we're already at that getting-to-know stage. His days off are weird and don't usually coincide with my days off. But we have already decided to meet in 2 weeks. Hopefully, we can talk more about