Skip to main content

Self-sabotage

 I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I know what I need to do. I know how important it is for my future and yet, here I am having an extremely difficult time getting things done. I am easily distracted from doing the thing I need to finish. I begin another project that is not important or do a completely unproductive, useless activity just to pass the time.

I honestly, don't know. I don't if I lack motivation or if I want to fail or I just don't want to be. It's frustrating because I know I'm fully capable but I keep on doing this to myself. 

I don't know. I keep telling myself that I need professional help. Yet, I haven't sought help. If only I could just fade away. I'm tired.


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Before Coming Out

Lately, I've been thinking of coming out. It's like I want to free of myself of the burden of keeping my identity a secret. But before I come out, I just have some personal conditions I need to accomplish first. I won't be doing these things just to earn people's approval on my lifestyle but more for me being comfortable in the path I've chosen to live.
23 comments
Read more

Japanese Bathhouse

I have never been to a bath house in my life. My knowledge about bath houses all came from blogs - gay blogs.  I discovered in those blogs that in bathhouses in the Philippines, you should leave all your shyness at the door because everybody walks around naked with cock whipping and balls hanging. There is a wet area where you can find the baths, sauna, steam room and shower. They say that's where the action takes place. So in short, you go to bathhouses if your looking for some titillating escapade. So that's what got me excited when I found out that I am going to go to a bathhouse here in Japan. Well aside from experiencing an authentic bathhouse for the first time, I would get to a see a sausage fest of sorts, have a relaxing massage, and hopefully experience some Japanese fun. I was darn nervous but excited.
11 comments
Read more

Thank You

"Thank you..." Parang iyon lang ang pinakaangkop na sabihin sa oras na iyon. Wala ng iba pang maaring ibahagi kung hindi ang pasasalamat. Sa kanilang pagsasama ay pawang kasiyahan lang ang nadama. "Thank you..." Sabay nilang nabanggit ang mga salitang iyon. Isang maiksing katahimikan bago mabulalas. Nagkatinginan, nagkangitian. Tugma ang damdamin, "Thank you..." Hindi man alam saan patutungo, o saan man makakarating. Hindi man sigurado sa mga ginagawa at nararamdaman. Ang pinakamahalaga marahil ay manatili ang pagsasamahan. "Thank you..."
1 comment
Read more