I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I know what I need to do. I know how important it is for my future and yet, here I am having an extremely difficult time getting things done. I am easily distracted from doing the thing I need to finish. I begin another project that is not important or do a completely unproductive, useless activity just to pass the time. I honestly, don't know. I don't if I lack motivation or if I want to fail or I just don't want to be. It's frustrating because I know I'm fully capable but I keep on doing this to myself. I don't know. I keep telling myself that I need professional help. Yet, I haven't sought help. If only I could just fade away. I'm tired.
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