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Unsettling

Unsettling
- adj. making you upset, dismay, disturb, uneasy

This is the feeling I really hate experiencing. It's like when something disrupts your current state and makes you feel uneasy and anxious. It's like having your brain think of a thousand thoughts all at the same time.

I never liked this feeling even in growing up. I see to it that everything is put into place before I retire to bed or leave the scene. I don't want to go home with so much uncertainty and vagueness. It'll just keep me up at night.

What happens if the issue is left hanging is that I wouldn't be able to think straight or I might make decisions hastily. It wouldn't be a sound decision. It would be rushed and I wouldn't care about what would happen next. I would just like to settle things at once.

Another is if that thing is left hanging, I would just totally give up on that. I would have to turn my back and just not care - at all. I'd rather be apathetic than feel hurt or dismayed or anxious or bewildered. There are far greater things to attend to than lose all my wits on that.

And so now, two hours past midnight, I can't sleep. I have a thousand things running through my mind - a thousand things to reflect on, most of which begins with "why."

I hope after this time, I wouldn't have to feel this way again.

Comments

  1. SepsepFebruary 13, 2015 at 8:22 AM

    What's this about? Issues with your love life? Well, I hope not.

    Eto talaga ang isa sa matinding kalaban nating mga medyo OC eh. Yung uneasy feeling na binibigay ng emotional chaos ng isip natin. :(

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 15, 2015 at 2:06 AM

    We all have probably been through this..

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  3. ZaiZaiFebruary 20, 2015 at 10:12 AM

    All will be well Justin :) Hugs!

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  4. Victor SaudadMarch 29, 2015 at 12:51 AM

    Patience - truly a virtue. There are matters that are best left to unfold on itself before one can act on it.

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