Closet Clutters

Inside a church, I saw two brothers. The older one looked like he was in his teens and his brother seemed he was just around eight. Then, another brother came along, he seemed to be a year or two younger than the older brother. Just like you and me.  Then it got me thinking, what would it be like if you were here? Would life be any different if I'd be an older brother? If you were here, I'd have a constant buddy in everything I wanted to do. We can go nature-tripping and be adventure junkies. We can drive around the city or even outside the city just because we're bored. I wouldn't have to look anywhere else for a companion because there you'll be in your room always ready to tag along. We could do all sort of things together. If you can play an instrument and me singing, we can form a band. We could excel in sports together and later be known in the community. We can enter showbiz together and be famous. We can party all night long and not care abo...

Whenever we feel tensed, our instinct is to relieve it. We don't want to hold on to it because we know that if we do so, what little tension we feel at the beginning will build up. And later on, once it becomes so big we won't be able to control or bear with it, and we will just explode. And what are these that cause tension? Most likely, it's stress from work or the anxiety from deadlines. There's also pressure from different aspects of our lives - family, friends, school, work, love life. These stressors keep our bodies contracted - our shoulders shrugged, wrist clenched, back tightened, toes curled. Not allowing our muscles to loosen up and relax results to poor performance. Like what I've said earlier, we immediately want to relieve the tension before it becomes problematic. What do we do? We relax. Have a break. Go on a vacation. Meet up with friends. Do just anything that puts our minds away from thinking about work. So that when we do return to our...

Nako kung siya lang at ako ang nasa room kanina, malamang di ko na talaga napigilan sarili ko. Baka nahubaran ko na siya ng tuluyan. Kasi ba naman bigla-biglang magbaba ng shorts at brief. Well gilid lang naman. Parang ganyan oh. Isipin niyo lang may t-shirt at shorts. Pero kahit na. Konting baba pa ay kitang kita na ang singit niya. (Singit na ata yung nakita ko e) Pati pubes. Mukhang di naman siya balbon. Kaya siguro wala ko masyado nakita. Or nag-aahit siya. Haays. My imagination. May susukatin lang dapat ako sa hita niya nang walang ano-ano, habang ako ay nakaupo at siya naman ay nakatayo at nakaharap sa akin, biglang binaba ang shorts. Pasensya na at naulit. Di pa rin kasi ako makapaniwala na wala pang isang dipa ang layo ng crotch niya sa face ko nung gawin niya yun e. Manukso ba kasi. Kulang na lang ngumanga ako at maglaway. Grabe lang. Ako naman yung nawalan ng composure. For a moment nag-lag ako, iniisip ko na ako na lang ang hahawak at magbababa. Pero nun...

I was with some friends that time. At the street as we were all having a conversation, I noticed, through my peripheral vision, three men approaching. They're tall, lean yuppies wearing what looked like uniforms, their polo barongs. They were all good looking. When they walked behind me, I tried to subtly turn my head and follow them. But when I turned my head to the other side, I saw my guy friend's eye looking, no, staring at the three tall yuppies. I just returned my head and smiled. I felt like my suspicion were validated. But later on, when we all went our separate ways, I wondered,was that really a validation rooted from my wishful thinking or do guys check other guys out? I have asked my girl friends if they check other girls out too. Almost all of them said yes. They do so because  (1) they find the girl's dress / outfit / accessories interesting, (2) they want to check the competition, or (3) they want to feel good about themselves by finding flaws from oth...

Saw two guys from my past today. It was just so unexpected meet them in those places. First was JM. As I was walking through the neighborhood streets, I saw a familiar figure walking towards my direction. I couldn't have been more certain that it was him. A sweet smile confirmed my guess. He just came from work and was just about to go home. Since it was the first time since we saw each other after so long, he decided to accompany me in my errands. While walking to different establishments, we were like our old selves again together - joking and teasing each other. It was just fun to see him again after both us became busy with our lives. And as we walked further, it was apparent that our relationship stayed the same after months of not speaking and seeing each other. It's as if nothing changed. And I was glad it was like that.  Then I realize, this is what I want. Maybe with him or not. Who knows. I just want to have somebody who can be my best bud in public and in the...

At natuloy din ang akyat namin ni Heyoshua yesterday. Di ba I was talking about trekking again in one of my previous posts. Hayan, ginawa na namin. Todo sa pawis pero todo naman sa bawi sa picture-picture. Sa Mt. Gulugod Baboy nga pala ito sa Anilao Batangas. At dahil successful naman ang climb, inisip naming ulitin 'to. At tulad naman din dati open naman ang akyat kung sino gusto sumama. The more the merrier, di ba. 

Makakatikim na naman ako ng inipit mula sa Eurobake. Naku, kapag bibisita kami sa mga kamag-anak namin sa Bulacan, lagi kaming may pasalubong nito. Mahilig kasi ako sa tinapay at matatamis. So it's always a treat to have this as we go back home. Before, the filling was thicker. It was more fun to eat it. Pero tulad ng former favorite kong burger, nagbago na rin ito. Still, it was  nice to see the store still alive after all these years. I hope my children can still enjoy their delicious delicacies. 

Dati super favorite ko ang Bacon Mushroom Melt. Kumpara mo sa Champ or BigMac, mas gusto ko parin ito. Naka-styro tapos served hot pa. Talagang melt. Pero simula nang nagmahal ang Wendy's, nagbago na rin ang BMM. Lumiit na siya. Numipis ang patty. Nagbago na rin ang lasa ng buns niya. Nung nag-order ako kanina ulit nito, mejo na-disappoint ako. Di na talaga siya tulad ng dati. Di nito na-trigger ang childhood memories ko. Happy memories with BMM. Sayang. Na-miss ko na ang Bacon Mushroom Melt...

We remember those who went ahead of us. May their souls celebrate with our Creator and watch over us always.