Moved on

It started with Jap Nishi posting a link in twitter. Well, he was talking to Miss Chuni and I happened to be observing my timeline. Since I didn't have much to do, I clicked the link which led me to Jap's old blog. The entry that opened was about his take on the beauty of goodbyes.

Since I'm in a goodbye-phase myself, I got hooked. I decided to read through his blog from his last entry. But what caught my eye almost instantly was his entry about why he started blogging. The final push in starting his blog, as he mentioned, was his breakup. And so, I was like 'what break-up? what happened?' So on to his first blog entry I hopped to find the answer.

Word for word I read intently. I could relate in some if not in most of the things he was saying. Cheating. Facebook. Emotional. Distraction. Then I turn to their last day (Jap and Ex). Different characters, different setting, but it was just like my last day with my ex.

We were happy on our last day. I took him to a somewhat fancy restaurant where he never ate before. I finally told my decision. He was caught off guard. After walking around the mall, we became ok. We decided to be friends. That it was for the best. But I ended up unfriend-ing him in FB, erasing his number. For months I couldn't understand why. Until I read this:

"How can we be friends if I’m still in love with you?"

I then realize, I still do. I am still in love with him. Though I grew tired of the repeated nights we fought. The many instances I turned into someone I was not. The number of times I felt things I shouldn't. The bottomline is I am still in love with him. The difference is, I wasn't brave enough to tell him that. And just recently, as I stalked him in facebook, I found out he's already in a relationship. Just roughly two weeks after we broke up. (funny how he suddenly had his posts set as viewable by the public). So I guess he already moved on.