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Crowd / What If

Walking with the crowd. Crossing the street. I see a lot of cute guys. One by one, I looked at them. Young professionals. Students. Regular employees.

Then I wonder. From the hundreds of people I've met in my lifetime, how come I couldn't find Mr. Right For Me? Where is he?

The questions just kept on going. Did he already come? Was I just too busy that I didn't notice him? Was I ready when he came?

As we reached the other side of the street, the crowd slowly dispersed. Each going to their respective destinations. I was left walking still. Alone. Still with the questions in my mind. And playing what if's.

What if...
               I was already stable when they came into my life?

What if...
               I was ready to be in a relationship?

What if...
                I have the resources to go on dates?

What if...
                I was sure of myself to be faithful even in a long distance relationship?

What if...
                I met him before he met his boyfriend?

What if...
                I was better than his ex?


Then I realize, there's no use playing this game.


Comments

  1. JjampongAugust 3, 2013 at 1:20 PM

    3 C's my friend :)
    Make a choice
    Take a chance
    and see the changes unfold

    http://attheendofeachday.blogspot.com/2013/05/3-cs.html

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  2. Victor SaudadAugust 4, 2013 at 12:35 PM

    it's just for amusement, this game that we all play in our guilty heads.

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  3. ZaiZaiAugust 4, 2013 at 5:40 PM

    What if's are a great waste of time :) But looking at cute guys you meet while walking, is time well spent :)

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  4. MamonAugust 4, 2013 at 9:04 PM

    Jjampong, thanks. I've known that 3C's for a long time na. minsan lang talaga may emo moments. :)

    Victor, e bat ganun, malungkot ako after playing that game?

    Zai, I love that game. haha :D

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