Closet Clutters

Minsan pag nagkakaroon ka ng SO (significant other) or SS (special someone) sa buhay mo, di ninyo maiwasang magkaroon ng tawagan or pet names. Classic example nun ay love, darling, mahal, pangga, beau, boo, bubba at kung ano-ano pa. So papatalo ba ko. hehe DK - naging DK kasi pareho naming nickname sa bahay ay nagsisimula sa D, so ibig sabihin niyan ay D** Ko. oh di ba, baduy. haha simula pa lang yan. Han - derived from my other name. When he first texted me, and addressesed me with this name, I thought he was just lazy typing. So I replied with the same name, and everything started from there. Mahal - Ito yung wala lang maisip na tawagan kaya nakiuso na lang sa mahal-mahal na tawagan. Soulmate - Ang dami kasi naming things in common kaya napagtanto naming soulmates kami. Though he's miles away, may pagkakaintindihan kami somehow. At excited ako makilala siya nang personal, like super personal. haha Big / little bear - Okay, siguro madali ng isipin kung sino si big bear...

Nakaupo na ko noon sa bus sa tabi ng bintana. Hilig ko talaga maupo sa window-side para pag nakatulog ako, may sandalan ang ulo ko. Habang dumudungaw sa bintana naramdaman kong may tumabi sa akin. Una kong napansin ang gym bag niyang dala. Abah, fit ito for sure. At hindi nga ako nagkamali. Triceps pa lang puro cuts na. Biceps pati na ang deltoids, toned din. Tumaas ang tingin ko. Dahan-dahan para di niya masyado mahalatang kinikilatis ko siya. Tsaka para malagyan na rin ng mukha yung mga  nakita kong body parts. Pagdating sa mukha, sabi ko, abah, pwede tong si kuya ah. Nang bubunutin ko sana ang cellphone ko sa bulsa ng pantalon ko na matatagpuan sa side nya, napadikit yung siko ko sa tagiliran niya. Sabay kibot naman si Kuya at tingin sa akin at sa siko ko. Mukhang irritable at inis. Tinamaan namna ako ng takot ng slight. Baka homophobic tong mokong na to. Dumistansya na ko baka mabugbog pa ko. Emote na lang ulit ako sa bintana habang pinagmamasdan ang mga palayang lagi ko ...

Just some moments I remember with the family... **** I just came out of the shower with just a towel around my waist... my mom and sister were on my bed and saw me... Mom: Ate, tignan mo oh. points at my belly.. kung sa baryo marami nang tao, pa'no pa kaya sa bayan? giggles Sister: Oo nga no, Ma. laughs out loud Me: blushing MA!! sabay walk-out! **** During dinner, while my nephew's being cute and adorable... Sister: Anak, kaw na talaga ang magiging susunod na Daniel Padilla. Me: Oo, artisahin siya e. Sister: Oh di ba, parang ako, iniwan ng asawa habang nagbuntis. Ako na si Karla Estrada. Turns to our mom. Ikaw naman, Mommy Eva Padilla. O di bah. Me: in my head....  So sino ako, BB Gandanghari, teh?! tseh ka! **** While changing my nephew's diaper... Sister: Baby, where's sunshine? Nephew: puts hand on his crotch... Chanchayn! Sister: You always say, Good morning, Sunshine!! Okey? Nephew: Chanchayn.. Me: in my head... S un...

Before they've been labeled as powers , I think they all went through a learning phase. Nobody can be experts on their first try, right? It takes practice to master any skill and develop a personal approach for each technique and position.   I remember the first time I was given some pointers by a former lover. I was such naive about certain things. When it came to the bed department, all I had was the one and only style I ever did to pleasure my partner. So having someone to mentor me and showing me the ropes widened my perspective on things you could do  in bed. It's good that you're willing to learn and try. But I guess it's far better if you're partner is also willing to learn and try as much as you do. The zeal in trying out things really spices up the relationship. I remember this guy I dated. He's really cool. One night, we wanted to try out something we haven't done before but nevertheless  very much willing to experience it. Two condoms and...

It's just something that I've been thinking of lately. Sex, I think, changes everything. For some, sex can be as casual as just having dinner together. Expecting nothing in return. Just contented with a night's pleasure and waking up in the morning with someone to cuddle. But for most people, including me (well, most of the time), post-sex is very crucial. It'll either make or break the relationship, even if it's just starting as friendship or dating. There's this guy who I like very much. We spent the night together in our first date. The night was very much enjoyable - and the things that happened. But come morning, it just went downhill. There were already disparity in our expectations which was mostly my fault. I have to admit, I really did something wrong. So now, the sweetness that once filled his messages became more generic and friendly. I'm still trying to turn things around with him. Trying to bring back what I wrecked. But, there's o...

when having sex, seek to pleasure yourself and not your partner Since I needed some distraction last night, I went out with my straight guy friends. Though there was no booze involved since liquor ban already started when we got to the fort, we just settled for a cup of coffee and some good ol' fashioned lafftrip conversation. Sometimes there were some bits of wisdom I heard from them. On kissing  having sex and telling: My friend had classified his friends into groups if ever they have sex: when both of them are game, either one of them is game when wasted (drunk or high), or both of them are game when wasted. When asked what the difference was, he said it's what can be told or be kept a secret. He keeps mum on his adventures when booze or drugs is involved. It belongs to the what-happens-in-stays-in category. Therefore, we, his friends, wouldn't hear about that story from him ever. On sex and pleasure: Another friend shared something he read when he was still in gr...

Siguro naman karamihan sa atin ay dumating na sa puntong kailangan nating mag-move-on. Yung tipong kailangan na nating ipagpatuloy ang buhay natin matapos ang isag kalungkot-lungkot na pagkakataon. At wakasan ang mga araw na tipong episode ito ng MMK. Kadalasan, matunog ang katagang move-on sa mga relasyong natapos. Kahit na buwan pa lang yan o umabot na ng taon, mayroon talagang mga relasyon na di maiwasang magwakas at matuldukan. Now, for the sake of this entry, we will assume that the one who needs moving on is the one left behind, the one caught off guard. Kasi kung iisipin natin, yung taong umiwan sa atin at nakipaghiwalay ay malamang nauna na siyang mag-move-on kaysa sa atin. Lingid sa ating kaalaman ay nag-iisip na siyang makipaghiwalay at naghihintay na lang ng magandang tiyempo o ng taong sasalo sa kanya. Minsan nga sa sobrang bilis nila mag-move-on nang hindi natin alam, malalaman lang natin matapos ang ilang araw ay mayroon na pala siyang iba. O davah! wala ng ...

Everybody has their own story how they knew they were different. When I was a teenager and trying to explore my sexual curiosity, I often ask people like me this question, 'how did you know?' And for all you reading, here's my answer. I already knew I was different in sixth grade when I can't seem to act normal around jocks in school. I usually stammer or act weird whenever we talk. And I couldn't maintain eye-contact with them without feeling shy. Yes, I think that was the first time I had a crush on someone. That was the time when I was conscious of how different I was based on my feelings and actions. But later on, I realized that I already had homosexual tendencies  as young as 7 years old. When I was at that age, my mom used to bring me with her to her workplace. Her boss was a sweet old lady with a son which also helps her in the business. The son was tall, friendly, and very pleasant looking (I didn't have any concept of sexy that time). And as I ...

After meeting these guys, something kinda dawned on me... -- I met him for the first time that day. He agreed to accompany me to an 'important' matter. Though we have been exchanging  messages for quite some time, I was still anxious for our first actual meet up. I already knew what he looked like. Based on the picture he sent, he could pass as a print ad model. He has a boyish charm to him, with rosy cheeks, and fair complexion. And according to him, he's also tall. First things I thought of when I saw the photo he sent me was 'Oh, he's so freaking hot!' 'He's so gorgeous!' "WOW" "Take me home!" hehe. Honestly, I didn't want to believe that it's his actual photo. I was like, 'no, he can't be this hot.' I was thinking, maybe he's just shy or maybe he wants to project a persona. And since our interaction was always pleasant (he's really very nice, friendly and funny), I went along with it, thinki...

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