Skip to main content

Bulong

Walang-ano-ano ay naibulong niya ang kanyang munting tanong...

- Nagustuhan mo rin ba ako?

Nahihiya pa niyang naitanong iyon habang nakapatong at nakasiksik ang kanyang mukha sa leeg ng kanyang kasama.

- I mean... nagkagusto ka ba sa akin ever?

Gusto man niyang bawiin, wala na siyang magawa. nasabi na rin niya eh. He might as well clear what he wanted to ask.

> Di ba nga sabi ko sa'yo noon... magpapayat ka lang ng konti, ang hot mo na.

- eeeeh. di mo naman sinagot yung tanong ko...

Tanging tawa na lang ang naisagot sa kanya.

Parang lahat, siguro halos lahat, na lang ng nakakasama niya sa kama ay iniisipan niya ng potential na maging kasintahan. Siguro dahil na rin sa pagkasawa niya sa palagian na lang sex ang bagsak ng nakakasama niya na kung saan siya ang madalas ang nagbibigay. Kaya marahil napapaisip na siyang lumagay sa tahimik.

Hindi na niya ipinagpatuloy ang pagtatanong tungkol sa nararamdaman para sa kanya. Tila mayroon na siyang hinala kung ano iyon at ayaw na naman niyang makadama ng sakit ng rejection. Sa palagay niya hindi dahil nagkaroon sila ng pagkakainitindihan ng nararamdaman kundi dahil sa sabay lamang silang nalibugan.

Siguro mabuti na yung hanggang doon lang ang pag-iisip niya ng ganoon. Mabuti na rin na tapos na rin ang paminsang pagsasama nila sa kama. Tama na marahil yung kaswal na lang sila na magkakilala o magkaibigan.
Labels:

Comments

  1. kalansaycollectorMarch 3, 2014 at 4:59 AM

    o ibulong na lang niya sa hangin baka sakaling tangayin ang naitatagong damdamin... :p

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 9:53 AM

      kanta ba yan? hehe

      Delete
    2. kalansaycollectorMarch 4, 2014 at 4:25 AM

      hindi. haha imbento lang. lol

      Delete
    3. MamonMarch 4, 2014 at 9:14 AM

      infairness, parang kanta. ituloy moo kaya sa poem, mukhang maganda :)

      Delete
  2. MugenMarch 3, 2014 at 7:48 AM

    Ang tanong, hanggang kailan ang cycle na ganyan?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 9:54 AM

      mukhang narerealize na niyang kailangan nang may magbago :)

      Delete
  3. Geosef GarciaMarch 3, 2014 at 3:15 PM

    Ambigat... :(

    ReplyDelete
  4. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 5:42 PM

    natauhan na siya

    ReplyDelete
  5. MailapMarch 4, 2014 at 10:53 AM

    fear of rejection & fear of being alone... deadly combination.
    buti na lang natauhan na.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. MamonMarch 4, 2014 at 10:48 PM

      i dont think there was fear of being alone. but yeah, that's a deadly combination.

      Delete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The One

Feeling loved and inspired, I ask my friends, who are in long-term, serious relationships, how and when they realized that their partners were the ones. Here are their answers: 1) "You don't know. You feel . Nagkakasundo kami palagi. And we have similar tastes." 2) " I just felt it . Despite everything that happened to us, we still chose each other . I just knew it. Tapos nagising na lang din ako isang araw na nung nakita ko siya pagkagising ko na katabi ko siya eh iba na yung feeling ko." 3) "Pasok siya sa criteria ko na kailangan lagi ako chinachat. Kaya nga until now lagi pa rin kami magkachat kahit nakatira na kami sa iisang bahay. Pinakaimportante dapat damang dama mo na gustong gusto ka niya.: 4) " Hindi niya ako iniwanan in my lowest point . He's one of the people na napaka-pure ng intention. Love personified." 5) " I just knew somehow .Yung di ako mahihiya ipakilala sa mga tao. Yung di na ako kailangan magtago." 6) "Sig...
Post a Comment
Read more

Before Coming Out

Lately, I've been thinking of coming out. It's like I want to free of myself of the burden of keeping my identity a secret. But before I come out, I just have some personal conditions I need to accomplish first. I won't be doing these things just to earn people's approval on my lifestyle but more for me being comfortable in the path I've chosen to live.
23 comments
Read more

A Walk to Equanimity Spa

I was just feeling really tired that day. There was all sort of stress that came my way that week - coming from deadlines from school and from the chaos in the family. All I want was just to have a relaxing massage since it has been a week since my last one. It was just fitting to reward myself with a good old rub down to ease tension from my body and my mind. So that night, I decided that I would get a massage no matter what. The bus I rode from school dropped me off at Kamuning Road. I decided not to go to my suking massage place because the new attendants there were young and very much inexperienced, as far as massage technique is concerned. That night I wanted quality massage really worth paying money for. In Kamuning, I remember passing-by a number of spa before. So I walked the street from EDSA to scout the area and look for a good massage place. The first spa that I passed-by had a black brand (which name I could not remember). It seemed nice but the feeling I had made me w...
18 comments
Read more