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Walang-ano-ano ay naibulong niya ang kanyang munting tanong...

- Nagustuhan mo rin ba ako?

Nahihiya pa niyang naitanong iyon habang nakapatong at nakasiksik ang kanyang mukha sa leeg ng kanyang kasama.

- I mean... nagkagusto ka ba sa akin ever?

Gusto man niyang bawiin, wala na siyang magawa. nasabi na rin niya eh. He might as well clear what he wanted to ask.

> Di ba nga sabi ko sa'yo noon... magpapayat ka lang ng konti, ang hot mo na.

- eeeeh. di mo naman sinagot yung tanong ko...

Tanging tawa na lang ang naisagot sa kanya.

Parang lahat, siguro halos lahat, na lang ng nakakasama niya sa kama ay iniisipan niya ng potential na maging kasintahan. Siguro dahil na rin sa pagkasawa niya sa palagian na lang sex ang bagsak ng nakakasama niya na kung saan siya ang madalas ang nagbibigay. Kaya marahil napapaisip na siyang lumagay sa tahimik.

Hindi na niya ipinagpatuloy ang pagtatanong tungkol sa nararamdaman para sa kanya. Tila mayroon na siyang hinala kung ano iyon at ayaw na naman niyang makadama ng sakit ng rejection. Sa palagay niya hindi dahil nagkaroon sila ng pagkakainitindihan ng nararamdaman kundi dahil sa sabay lamang silang nalibugan.

Siguro mabuti na yung hanggang doon lang ang pag-iisip niya ng ganoon. Mabuti na rin na tapos na rin ang paminsang pagsasama nila sa kama. Tama na marahil yung kaswal na lang sila na magkakilala o magkaibigan.
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  1. kalansaycollectorMarch 3, 2014 at 4:59 AM

    o ibulong na lang niya sa hangin baka sakaling tangayin ang naitatagong damdamin... :p

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    1. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 9:53 AM

      kanta ba yan? hehe

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    2. kalansaycollectorMarch 4, 2014 at 4:25 AM

      hindi. haha imbento lang. lol

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    3. MamonMarch 4, 2014 at 9:14 AM

      infairness, parang kanta. ituloy moo kaya sa poem, mukhang maganda :)

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  2. MugenMarch 3, 2014 at 7:48 AM

    Ang tanong, hanggang kailan ang cycle na ganyan?

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    1. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 9:54 AM

      mukhang narerealize na niyang kailangan nang may magbago :)

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  3. Geosef GarciaMarch 3, 2014 at 3:15 PM

    Ambigat... :(

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  4. MamonMarch 3, 2014 at 5:42 PM

    natauhan na siya

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  5. MailapMarch 4, 2014 at 10:53 AM

    fear of rejection & fear of being alone... deadly combination.
    buti na lang natauhan na.

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    1. MamonMarch 4, 2014 at 10:48 PM

      i dont think there was fear of being alone. but yeah, that's a deadly combination.

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