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Honestly, I didn't know he still had that effect on me. Many months have passed and alot has happened. I had my share of successes and failures that's why I never thought he still mattered to me, until that text message I received from him.

I must admit, I didn't expect he would contact me ever again after reading what I wrote about him. But he did. And I can't say I was happy he did.

For the months I erased him in my life, I already thought I have moved on. I didn't think of him anymore. And just recently, I was able to disconnect him from all my social media.

So that text he just sent me came in by surprise. And damn it, all that feelings resurfaced - feelings I didn't know I still kept. Anger. Regret. Pity. Hurt. Intense. Everything just came back.

For sometime, I was back in that emo shit I was months ago. I wanted to explode. I wanted to express myself. I wanted to write something hurtful. But I didn't, I controlled myself. I guess I'll just have to wait to see my go-to person to do that.

So here's what I'm going to say to you who surprisingly still read my blog:

Yes, by now, you'd probably know that that post was about you. Us being friends? Ahh.. I don't know. I don't see it happening anytime soon. But thanks anyways for wishing me well. I too sincerely wish you happiness. But I hope that's the last text I'll receive from you. And I hope our paths won't cross again. Let's just be happy in our own circles. alright? Ciao :)




Postscript:

As I read my post about him, I realized at some point in my life I was my most recent date. Just a realization. We sometimes let others feel what we ourselves wouldn't want to feel nor experience.

Comments

  1. I had no idea na may pinagdadaan ka palang ganito the last time we met. :(

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    1. no, wala pa to nung huli tayong nagkita.

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    2. Oh okay, over the weekend pala ito. Are you okay? Nahawaan ka ata ng drama ko. *hehe*

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    3. im good. after ko na maisulat lahat, mabilis na ko mag-move on :)

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  2. aww.. me too, i didnt know my friend.. masikreto ka talagang tao...

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