Our story

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I wanted to write something for so long because these past few days to weeks were a rollercoaster (yes, that analogy again) of emotions.

But where should I begin?

I wanted to start at the ending, the very last text message he sent where I didn't have the will or drive to reply at. And from there, I could do a flashback of how happy and content I was seeing him, though not much often than he wanted to. Then I could finish with how we started, the first and the second time we went out.

But, this is a story I can't fully grasp. Conflicting emotions overcome me up to this very moment. Regret. Relief. Hurt. Sadness. Embarrassment. And I guess more.

I wanted to write a decent explanation, but I don't think it would have any bearing now. I could write an apology but he said he doesn't need it.

Am I really that numb? Maybe. I guess. Perhaps being hurt for so many times makes one that way.

So, about our story... I guess it ended before it even began.


*image from here

8 comments:

  1. Di ba pwedeng gumawa na lang ng bagong istorya na may ibang bida?

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    1. pwede naman. pero ngayon, siguro solo journey muna.

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    1. Parang ganun. Siguro it was more my fault. I don't know. Ngayon, parang wala na rin namang sense alamin whose fault it was.

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  3. hmm.. i think we badly need to talk..

    #chismosa

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    1. oo! I desperately need to talk to you! :)

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  4. hay so many heartbreaks lately sa pagbablog hop ko ha.

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    1. parang season ata ng heartbreaks ngayon

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