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Issues

by The Saturdays

Sometimes
I Feel like Im going out of 
My mind,

Boy the way you do me is a 
damn crime,

But then you smile at me
and its all right, 

With you there aint nothin' in between,

Every time that I walk out the door,
Tell myself I can't take it no more,

There's a part of me won't let you go
Keep saying yes when my minds saying no,

Me and my heart we got issues,
Dont know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Its so wrong, boy you leave me hangin' for so long,
You empty out my love until its all gone,
You change the words but still it's the same song,
I'm tired of the melody.

Change my number and throw out your clothes,
But my feelings for you, it still shows,
I keep building the walls round my heart,
But then I see you, and it all falls apart...

Me and my heart we got issues,
Dont know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Why fight it, cant hide it
Truth is I think I like it,
Confusion, illusion
Still I dont know which way to go.

Me and my heart we got issues,
Dont know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues,
We got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues

Me and my heart we got issues
Dont know whether I should hate you or miss you.

*******

What should I be feeling right now? I miss him but it was me who called it off. I should be manning up to my decision but what is this. Is this guilt or regret. I don't know. It's the second time it happened. Second time I broke off a relationship. Why. I think I have issues. Commitment issues. So afraid to go in so deep and be involved and soon get hurt that's why I ended it myself. Or I didn't want to commit because I don't want to be tied down. I have issues. I'm broken and damaged. And it doesn't help that I love to watch chick flicks. It just reminds me of how I suck in my relationships. Or maybe this fondness for these movies is what caused me to be damaged. These movies twisted my perception of reality and filled it up with make-believe happy endings and fantasies. I think I'm just in love with love. I'm so envious of the characters falling head over heels for each other, going through problems of their own and ending up together later on. I don't know what I should feel. I miss him. But I got issues.
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  1. BwryanMay 23, 2012 at 12:15 AM

    like as it was written, it's difficult to complete someone when you, yourself is incomplete...

    take it one step at a time if needed, Just. It's better to take it slow... and remember, andito lang ako... kami...

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  2. ShenanigansMay 23, 2012 at 12:44 AM

    hala! what happened?

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  3. UnknownMay 23, 2012 at 6:55 PM

    everything will be fixed, hold on.

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  4. Victor SaudadMay 26, 2012 at 5:50 PM

    You committed yourself to the guy, yet you can't seem to man up to the commitment. So you broke it off. But now, you're having a sense of remorse over your breakup.

    You do have issues.

    Better get to the bottom of it, and sort it out.

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