What's this I'm feeling again. Loneliness? Boredom? Discontent? Frustration? Disappointment? I don't know. I feel like I'm Stripe, the little caterpillar in the book Hope for the Flowers. Like him, I feel that there's got to be more to life than just this, this, whatever this is I have now. Sometimes, I do things to alleviate this gloomy feeling that has been recurrently swallowing me up. I go out, have a massage, see a movie, walk around campus, just to pass the time even if I'm all by myself. But all of these aren't solving my problem. That's why sometimes I don't even bother going out because it does nothing for my general disposition. They are just temporary. They are just giving me a false sense of bliss and satisfaction. I need to find what would give me a true sense of happiness. I got to search for something more, more to life.
Lately, I've been thinking of coming out. It's like I want to free of myself of the burden of keeping my identity a secret. But before I come out, I just have some personal conditions I need to accomplish first. I won't be doing these things just to earn people's approval on my lifestyle but more for me being comfortable in the path I've chosen to live.
go where your heart is, happiness is just around
ReplyDeletethere is more to life :) nasa tabi tabi lang ang happiness ^_^
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find happiness in the simple things; like waking up everyday, spending time with family or friends, a good meal..and you'll always find a reason to be happy. hugs!
ReplyDeletei love this song ....i wonder where stacie is ...
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